How stupid & dumb that everytime i fall in love,
there's no good ending.
tell me, is this my karma?

That when i really want to be together with someone,
when i want to share my everything with him/her.
Each time, it just wont work out due to many diff reasons.
& twice, it happens sth like , its me, not you.
how abt when there was once, religion was involved as well.
wtf?, then you got to try loving someone else more than urself.
like what im trying to do now.
who aint afraid of getting hurt? I know i am.
thats probably 80% of the reason why i pulled each time.
jus bcos i didnt want to get hurt.
but im ready to get hurt, some basterd will think the way i thought.

The funny thing is , when i aint serious or you know,
just wan to have fun. The opposite partner will be
so serious about me.
It just wont work out , right?
esp when i have a queer characteristic of liking someone
first and enjoy the feeling of loving someone more than
he/she does compared to me.

& i thought this time it will work out. really.
maybe i should stop being serious and just have fun all the way.
do you understand how it feels when a heart breaks into a million pieces?
it makes you want to give up trying bcos ure so sick & tired of it.
my right one will never arrive right?. Prove me wrong.

God, i tried being serious. To try being in a relationship and not having
flings. Look! A wrong move. A mistake.
Seems like my heart cant take another blow so soon. too bad for the
pples who wants to get involve in me during this period.


a blessing in disguise like what debra said.