I'm starting to get pretty negative about life right now. I dont like how i am feeling and there is no better way to explain it . Had my first business etiquette class today and i dont feel confident at all. Bcos they are talking abt poise and overall outlook. I'm like having fanciful hair color and sleepy face ! How to pass ? i wonder how. Caught tattooist. lame show . i wonder who said it was nice to me. After which went to have a haircut with emily ! To be exact, she brought me to the place and tell the auntie the way to trim it. & I hate it ! Cos it didnt turn out nice , so unlike her hair. Which makes me extra emo ! cos i feel ugly now and i think no one will like me now !

Me: how will u be celebrating xmas ?
EMI : with my friends lor .
Me : hur ?! they are all single meh .
EMI : Some of them are attached , but then we made a deal alr. so they wont be celebrating with their bfs. Just us , friends !
Me : then their bfs wont mind ?
EMI: Ohh , their bfs are understanding pple . They also have their frens what. You?
Me : yeah , with my friends too and their bfs !
EMI: Ah , is it ?!
Me : Yeah , some attached , some single . But some of them , their bf aint sociable . They usually sit down there , show an unfriendly face and keep quiet ! Which is quite irritating cos they made themselves like an extra . Even if u talk to them , they jus anwer to ur qn . They wont open up and mingle ard !
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I want to say , those pple who scolded me , say me and stuffs like that when im with howie . Saying that i went MIA and disregard friends ! YOU PPLES HAVE NO RIGHT AT ALL TO SAY ME . CHECK OUT URSELF !

We cant even have a proper dinner together . All of us . i meant of all of us . Yes , i never say its wrong to bring ur bfs ard ! Provided that they are not mood spolier . Some can even show temper infront of us ! like wtf ! It will be great if everyone jus open up and have fun . i wouldnt mind that . Whatever it is , i may offend whoever who is reading . You know who you are ! Seriously , there is a limit ! Maybe u shld discuss it with ur gf/bf that they either be sociable or be understanding to allow u to spend some time with frens. Before u drift away from ur frens .
however , i dont think its their faults . I think its more likely my frens doesnt wan be seperate from their bf/gf. WHATEVER it is .

If this Christmas is gg to screw up again ! I rather stay home and sleep it through! The following Christmas and occasion . You guys can go spend it with ur love ones ! Thats what u love . ISN'T IT ? 24/7 tog! Then u guys better pray u and ur love ones can LAST FOREVER ! cos frens aint ur spare tyre !