It will be all lies if i say i dont feel a tinge of sadness . How strong can i be ? Only to others. But deep within , i know i felt lost, i know i felt fear and most importantly i did loved and maybe i still love! But then again , no one is indispensable! But this time , i felt no regrets ! Bcos i feel that i made the right decision . I did think over . I did ! It will be no happiness if we mind each other for who we really are. It may be a blessing in disguise if thing end early. The longer it drags , the harder to let go. I know who can truely give me happiness . I know who can truely make me smile from within. I know ! I know who i can love for who the person is . The person doesnt even need to change anything bcos i am loving the way the person is . Needless to say , she is the one who makes me happy when he made me sad. However , when will things ever be so perfect ? There is always a twist .

Gay buddy ask me to take a break ! She said it seems tiring to be me ! Always pursuing a new kind of thrill , always someone new so fast. Although it seems contradicting , but i do long for a stable one . Does the problem lies in me ? i really dont know. but gay buddy says things will come their way, eventually. Yes , im not in a hurry at all. In fact , i should really take a break and share love with friends. At least , there wont be heartbreak ! Life can really make a fool out of me . Okay its seems stupid to blame life . But when i always hope for the right one to come , it came and i didnt cherished . When i finally learn how to , the next one didnt much appreciate . Seems to have notice my own reflection when i didnt appreciate the previous one ! I really saw the similarities !

2007 , a year full of love stories for myself ! Fairytales never come true ! I never much believe in them anyway ! But friendships always stand by me , it never fails me when i need them. They are always the reliable one . Love always break their promises , but friendship didnt . Just as i predicted, this christmas i wont be bringing anyone along ! I told you guys alr ! Ha , i dont know if i shld laugh or cry.