Alright im feeling so vexed that i decided to go for a run. i ran all the way to serangoon. Feeling so tired , i rest at the bus stop. i sat there , allow my thoughts to flow . it doesnt really help though, cos all i thought of was rita . it was a mistake ! i tot i cld handle this . well , it backfired . I didnt expect that at all ! but you know , feelings. They come and go ! Very tough to handle !
maybe very soon , it will go away! i dont know ? The two nights was a hit!
but hey , i dont need to hide this . whats the point of having a blog , then i got to hide what i want to say . & i m not using this chance to tell anybody, anything. And im not gg to do anything abt how i feel! cos i dont think it matters. Well , i do think i deserve what i desire . But thats not point! Anyway, thats probably why i still choose to keep a dist from polar. bcos i still do not know what i want . & its unfair to him!
Beside , i do not need to live up to ppl's expectations! i dont need pple to think that i need to be this or that. i be as i want! okay , this may look defensive ! whatever it is , im still single ? That's the main issue! haha. Ahhh , i love being single ! bcos i do not need to feel the guilt nor do i need to account to anyone . but when the day , i finally decided to settle down . i will be the best girlfriend to anyone. well , i hope i will be !

This is the real me ! Not a mask !