Today i am very sad.
Very sad, depressed.
i guess i am always wearing a mask.
pple dont usually see the emotional side of me.
its always the crazy and childish michelle.
even when i cry, its always under the blanket.
few pple have seen my tears. some only hrd it
on the phone. those are the ppl who see the real me,
the devastated me.
what day is today? everyone seems so busy.
what day is today? i met her to exchange our belongings.
no more beanie. no more beanie. i miss beanie.
those smiles i used to get , are not for me anymore.
still i wish her all the best and that she will be happy !
words are easy . let it go , time heals all wounds, get over her.
you will find someone better.
yes, i want to get over her too. i want to forget abt her! im
fighting against my mind and soul. but lost to a significant word
called "memories."
i cant find any more reasons for any meetings in e future.
when will be the next time? guess fate will arrange the next
meeting! but fate have played me for one and e half a mth and
thus only allowing me to see her when i was standing at the window.
munching away on my orange slice, seeing her and someone walking
home happily. the joy i used to noticed in the past when she was with
me.
such coincidenence , i dont appreciate!
Everyone thought that im over it ! i thought i was too.
till i realised my heart still aches. some say new love beats old
ones. is this true ? i guess so , but not till i find someone who
is mature , wise , sweet and understanding ! Still a line for everyone,
treasure wad u have in front of you , not regretting it only when it leave
you. the meeting earlier was on a cheery note. i joked and laughed
but i noticed there was awkwardness. but still it feels good seeing
her silly self. cute. ((:
maybe one week later , when i find someone new. i will forget how sad i
felt today. maybe soon i will find something more important in life than
to brood in love.maybe. maybe. or maybe , i can never forget her and live
a sad life, not accepting anyone except for her !
