Is my circle of my SECONDARY school frens gettin smaller?
OR is everyone just drifting apart. I think its my mistake.
The only friend whom im really close to now is TAN HWEE YING!
She is the one whom i meet at least once a week , she is the one who knows
im still dead or alive. She is the one who ask me out just for dinner.

Where is the promise that we will meet once a week?
Didnt we once mention it before ?

- i know i was once carried away. looking back. i think it sucks!

YAH, i hate the feeling of asking pple out.
or maybe its the way how i express myself.
each time when i ask someone out, they always give
me the feeling , oh okay LOR , accompany you go !

For example: if i say lets go shopping together , lets go study together!
Often the reply will be , okay LOR . when you want ?
Then i will think , if you dont want then nvm, why sounds like ure forced to?
surprisingly, hweeying doesnt give me such feelings. So is it the people
i asked ?! . . .

Then again, maybe im being too sensitive! AIYAH, i dont know.
On Christmas Eve that night, i was single. Everyone was occuppied
then huiyu said, we came town JUST to accompany you LE !
This lead me to think , come bcos you wanna come, dont come becos
you think it is only right for you to do so. it is not like i dont appreciate
but somehow i felt quite shitty after hearing that.

Do ppl see my point ?! i guess not !